Have you ever thought about who you are and what you have become? 21 and ready for fun ... no 21 and ready for business. It is so scary about how imporant your everyday actions are for your upcoming future. Being a college senior graduating a semester early - it is scary to think about what I actually mean to somebody. But no really ... what impression am I leaving people - a good one, a bad one? Am I considered nice, or am I considered a bitch? Sometimes not knowing is so much better than knowing ... actually I live by that phrase ... because knowing something you shouldn't can ... destroy you.

My name is Abbey. I'm 21, a senior at Baldwin-Wallace College. I look at life as a way of creating yourself and becoming something that means something. I am fiercy independant and have been that way since sophmore year of college.

I've experienced heartbreak, actually I'm still dealing with it. I fell in love with a boy and although he has done everything to basically glue/patch/paste my heart pieces back together, it just won't happen. Love is a scary thing. That is the one part of you that you become vulnerable, you start thinking for two instead of one, you constantly are wearing a smile/or a frown. Nothing is inbetween - so cut and dry. Being a college student - I look at relationships at my age as a mistake. People don't know what they want ... people like alcohol to much. It is so scary to see what people do to eachother, when they are SO "in love." I'm happy how my situation played out though... because without that heartbreak I would not be the person I am today ... and trust me - i know that sounds cliche but trust me ... it is true. If i was reading this three years ago - i would be laughing, because I was the happiest girl and in a matter of 5 minutes my world was able to crash down.

It was a simple conversations that ended with

"I just don't see forever with you, and you're not marriage material."

And a simple hang up of a phone from the party on the other line which left a broken girl with a broken heart. How do you pick yourself off the ground after you spent 4 years of your life becoming comfortable with someone. Someone you could share your deepest darkest secrets... your likes and dislikes?

TIME.

Time heals everything. And if you think I'm lying ... STOP.